Guilt

Self guilt is a horrible feeling. I always feel guilty when I say I am going to work out but don't. I mean, its easy to work out on the days I have off...but working out on the days I work is really hard! I like to go to classes instead of just aimlessly doing some random machine...but there always seems to be something more exciting to do...
Like going out to eat! My in-laws just got here Monday (they moved from CA) and we haven't seen them much in the past 3 years...so invitations to spend time with them seem to be more inviting than working out. Plus, the classes are always around dinner time. It seems to me that it would be more convenient to have gyms open until 10pm...PEOPLE WORK YA KNOW!!!!!

So anyway, we are going to Don Pablos...but I will be really good. I am going to get the skinny enchiladas...and not eat the whole thing. Uggggghhhh why do I feel so guilty???? I mean, I did lose 2 pounds last week! That is something, right?????

Rome Wasn't Built In a Day

OK...so Rome wasn't built in a day. I get that. Sounds majorly cliche. But it is true. It is Saturday and I feel great! I did really well this week. I exercised every day but Thursday. I went spinning this morning.

For the food I have been eating, I have been trying to stick with what I call "whole foods." Things that are not processed like fruits, veggies, yogurt, meat, salad, etc. If I eat something processed, it is minimal. I can't tell if I have lost any weight yet but I am definitely on the right path.

Tonight I am going out to eat with Angela and Stephanie. We are going to Zia's downtown. I have been good so far, and I am really going to try to eat healthy while I am there (with a few cocktails of course!).

So the main thing for me to remember: Rome wasn't built in a day. I won't get skinny in a week but I am going to try like hell to get skinny in a few months!

My Feet Hurt

I went jogging/walking after work today. It is such a beautiful day out! WOW! If only the rest of the year could be this wonderful. I made a great salad for dinner. I got the recipe on Cooks.com ...it's an Applebee's Asian Chicken Salad recipe. Tasted pretty yummy, although Neal thought the dressing was too oniony. Oh well, I liked it.

So my feet hurt on the bottom...I wore the wrong tennis shoes when I went to the park and didn't realize it until I was half way there. I can feel the beginning of blisters on the bottom of my feet.

So that is about all today. I don't feel like writing any more for today. Once I am inspired...I will write something more interesting. But so far, so good on the diet thing. I have been doing really well!

A Beautiful Day

I did great today! Jeanette came over with Makenzie and we had pizza. I had 2 pieces and a salad to go along with it. The kids played outside, and it was just beautiful! Jeanette and I had a great time catching up. I really miss talking to her now that she doesn't watch Oliver every day. After they went home, I took a nap. Oliver and I woke up around 5pm. I went to step class at 6:30 and I am just now eating dinner! (A Marie Calender TV Dinner since Neal is out with the guys). Back to work tomorrow...URRRGGH. I packed a healthy salad and some yogurt for lunch. Let's hope it is a good day.

Wake up wake up!

I had Neal take these pictures last night of me. Wow...I really let myself go!

I woke up this morning at 7am and hit snooze. Then I realized that I promised myself this blog. So I rolled out of bed at 7:14am and got dressed for yoga. I weighed in at 169 pounds. I went downstairs to the basement and did 50 minutes of yoga from a DVD that I bought years ago. I felt good. I was glad that I got my ass out of bed. For breakfast I had 1/2 C. oatmeal with a small amount of brown sugar and a fat free Organic yogurt.

I went out to lunch with my mom to Charlie's Diner and ordered a coffee and a Gyro wrap. I ate only half and saved the rest for Neal. I had a yogurt smoothie before I went walking/running this evening. I walked/jogged for about 30 minutes.

All in all I worked out for 80 minutes today!

For dinner I made a pizza casserole which I got from WW. I had a hearty helping of zucchini with it and some left over carrots that I made last night. I have in the oven right now a WW recipe Pumpkin Pie. Should be pretty good.

Anyway, that is my first day. It wasn't so bad. Let's see what tomorrow will bring. So far I feel great!

The Eve

OK, so I am really sick of being overweight. And no matter what I do or how "good" I say I am going to try to be, it never ever works. I always end up splurging on a bowl of cereal before bed, or go through McDonald's drive thru and eat ALL of my food and half of Oliver's. I tell myself I am going to exercise, but I don't. I make up excuses as to why I can't, or believe I am really as sleepy as I think I am. I weigh between 165-168 depending on which day I weigh myself. I know it doesn't seem like its that much ...and I am sure that there are tons of women out there that wish to weigh what I do, but for me it just isn't good enough.

About six months ago I went to my doctor for a routine cholesterol screening and I was floored by the results. My triglycerides were a whopping 373 and my total cholesterol was 240! I mean, for a 28 year old female, I was well on my way to diabetes. I monitored what I ate, started to do a workout DVD every morning and cut down my intake of bad carbohydrates (cake, cookies, cereal) and incorporated more healthy things into my diet. Well, it must have worked because when I went back in Feb. my Triglycerides went down to 128 and my cholesterol was down to 180. I was floored! Of course, I didn't weigh any less.

So from about February until now, I have slowly crept back to putting on the weight, not exercising and eating like a pig. So my grand idea while I was in the shower this morning was to start a blog. Its mainly for me to journal my feelings and to be my own advocate. But I also want to share my next few months with everyone. I will be taking a before picture, with my weight and I will blog daily on what I have eaten, how I feel, what activities I have done, etc. and we will see how I do come August 17th (the day my last semester of nursing school starts). I went through McDonald's for lunch today, I am baking cookies as I write this and I am preparing myself for my new life tomorrow. So wish me luck, read it when you can, and hopefully I can inspire myself and others to start the road to recovery...